Monday, July 19, 2004

LIFE SO FAR

(1) Tomorrow you can see another writing of mine in publish. Like they say, “If you wake up thinking about singing today, it makes you a singer. If you wake up thinking about your writing, then you are a writer, whether you are published or not.”

By that generous definition, I am a writer. I write fictions and non-fictions with the same passion, but funnily, only my non-fictions are published in print. I quite fancy having another piece of my writing published next November, with an insane intention to write a research report on telco engineering with poetic language. A soulful research report maybe with snippets of love songs attached here and there. Yeah right. As if.

(2) I’m recovering, at last, from last week’s violent illness. Another lesson learnt: I’ll never again abuse myself.


(3) I’d rather lecture on Electromagnetic Theory than have a casual conversation with anyone. Better yet, I’d just write to myself like this. No matter how hard I try to do otherwise, seems like everytime I try to have casual conversation with a person, I end up hurting that person. This only happens with people I care about. Well of course. With people I don’t care about, I won’t spare the time to analyse whether I say something wrong or whether I use rude words. With people I care about, I can cry for hours over a single wrong word I say, over each idea taken wrongly, over each comma, over each full stop. The opposite is also true: your words can only hurt me if you are a person I care about.

(4) Seems like every step and every turn I make, always takes me back to you. Damn I miss you.

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