My research has finally found itself into a tight corner, refusing to budge.
I know I've been unkind to it: I purposely neglect it, go on with my routines, always thinking that somehow the research will unfurl itself beautifully before my eyes. And a research paper will magically write itself, and then I'll blissfully and elegantly will send it to a prestigious conference which committee will accept it enthusiastically, requiring no revision, even thanking me for sending them such a glittering piece.
Alas, that's not happening. I have only until May 8 if I want to participate in a conference in Bandung, and the research is still stuck in a tight corner.
I am as usual swamped with my routines, and only started to look at it again about two weeks ago. I thought I needed to decode A = B + C + D, where B, C, D required lengthy calculations on their own. Then last night, when I finally figured B, C, D out, it turned out that I still couldn't get A. So there: stuck in a tight corner.
I got quite angry with it, but I figured there wasn't much to do. I would need to attack it through a different route, probably by using Seamcat first. But then there were so many questions flooding me - and I got angry again.
Maybe it just requires more of my time - the way a pet or a plant or a hobby requires one's time - before it agrees to leave that tight corner.
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