Hope begins in the dark, the stubborn hope that if you just show up and try to do the right thing, the dawn will come. You wait and watch and work: You don't give up. ~ Anne Lamott
I haven't been writing enough lately. As in writing as a therapy. As in, blogging.
But believe you-me, I have been writing a LOT in terms of academic papers. And let me tell you that it is not as satisfying as blogging, and I miss blogging so much.
As it is now, I need to clear my head after a marathon of writing and rewriting my dissertation and papers. My first Advisor has clearly indicated that he wants me to defend this June. I told him I had some concerns, such as:
1) I don't have any significant contribution to the topic.
2) I am just simply not ready.
(I didn't mention point #2, actually, for the sake of saving my dignity. That is, if I had any dignity to start with, which I doubt.)
He addressed point #1 by saying our concern is the time constraint. Granted, I should've achieved a lot more, but to do that I need more time. And he'd prefer I finish in 3 years, more so than achieving a "more significant contribution" but taking 5 years to accomplish that. Of course, we both understood that even with additional 2 years, there was no guarantee that my "contribution" would be "more significant".
No Sir, on the contrary, I believe that even with additional years, I would not be able to do much more than what I already have.
So I think I will push myself to a targeted June Defense.
I hope it will be a nice discussion, where we talk about the results, the limitations, the possibilities to expand my research. I hope that despite being limited, contribution-wise, the examiners will still let me pass. I hope I will have a good time.
Please wish me luck.
