I am bit stuck. None of the simulations worked the way I predicted them to. And now I am not sure anymore what I want out of these simulations anyway. The uber-abstract concepts just throw me off balance too many times; I don't know where to hang on anymore. Or what to hang on by.
On a merrier note, yesterday finally the announcement came: I got a research grant from the uni. It's a small amount, but I am still happily surprised because I thought my proposal wasn't even decent.
This can be good for my CV. I am sometimes thrilled at the thought that maybe, just maybe, after so many wrong turns, so many ugly incidents along the 10 years of trying to build a career, I am on the right path all along.
