UNCONFIDENT PART 1

Education is the ability to listen to almost anything without losing your temper or your self-confidence. ~ Robert Frost (1874 - 1963)

It's a wonder that I came across that quote above, one that put 'education' and 'confidence' in the same sentence. To me, the more studying I do, the more unconfident I get. Confidence has become an issue for me nowadays. Or rather, the lack of it, actually.

Was it really less than 10 years ago that I approached everything so confidently? Darn. To think that some years ago there was a younger version of myself who roamed about telling herself that she could do postgraduate level of engineering studies and be a writer and be a lecturer and even publish her own book. To think that only a few years back I would grab every single opportunity to do "something different" and now I run away, panting with my every step, everytime somebody asks me to do something I don't normally do. It sickens me to realize what a chicken I have become. I have finally, like so many others, entered my comfort zone and leaving it seems like too great a task for me.

Sigh.

The campus assigns me this year, this very year, to do my doctorate study.

Gulp.